Hm. Well, I have a lot on my plate. School is almost over, but it isn't over yet. I need to learn a lot of music for band, and I haven't even started. I need to study for the AP exam coming up like asap. I have to figure out how I'm going to get $5,000 in order to go to St. Albans this summer. I need to get a prom dress soon. And I have NO job. And I guess you can say I'm still dealing with a break-up.
So idk.. it's hard to say what will happen. But I really want to do well, and the pressure is on. Just gotta do it.
I know, you're probably wondering what St. Albans is. Well, St. Albans is a private school in Washington D.C. . I applied to a summer program there, the School of Public Service, and I got accepted, which is AMAZING. I cried, lol. So, I'll be in Washington D.C. from June 21st to July 18th learning about government, politics, public policy, and all of that. It is like the biggest honor. So I'm preparing—reading the paper everyday, trying to become extremely informed so that I can make the most out of my experience there. This sounds great right? Well, it costs like $5,000, and I'm hoping and PRAYING that the financial aid will cover. I'll probably get money from the school, but if not it'll be tough. So this whole money crisis is quite stressful, and my mom does an excellent job at reminding me how I don't have a job everyday. Trust me, I've tried to get one, but no one wants me! lmao. It's kinda not funny though. Ugh.
Prom? Ugh, I'm not excited for it as much. I have no clue what I'm wearing. My date is like SO not filling me in, and I'm almost 90% sure that I will just say eff it and go alone. It is too much to even stress over. So yea, as of just now, lmao, I am dateless, dressless, and clueless when it comes to this Prom stuff. Don't worry, I don't need a date. Not that big of a deal, and I'm not dying to get a date. I wanted one, and no one asked me, so I asked my ex-boyfriend. He goes to college in North Carolina, so I think it'll be too much for him & me.
Break-up? Hm. It isn't really recent, but things change all of the time. Me & Bonvincent broke up February 15th, and we're still going back & forth. I don't want to get into detail, but basically, we both don't know what we really want. As of right now, I'm okay with how everything is between us, and I'm not going to lie about that. But I'm still doing my own thing, no matter what happens between us. I've made up my mind, and I have to do things for me. I am talking to someone, and I reaaaallllyyy like talking to that person. I'm not willing to risk the relationship I have with him because of Bonvincent's confusion. However, I am willing to love Bon no matter what happens. He has been my best friend for a year, probably the best friend I've ever had, and I couldn't abandon one of my best friends.
Haha—that reminded me of that catchy & annoying Drake song, "Best I Ever Had". I keep listening to it... pretty weird:
Best I Ever Had - Drake
So this is where I am right now. I did pretty well on my SATs, and I am very relieved (1650). I have a lot to be excited about and I have a lot to focus on.
Hard work. No excuses.
-IJ
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