Never Ending Times

You would think that I would be a little more motivated during HSPA week, right? Well, I am far from that. I am the laziest human being in the world. I am slightly repulsed by my own lethargy. I am sick with the -itis. Senioritis, that is.

My thoughts are scattered. My bad habits are intensified. My time management skills have exponentially decreased. Basically, I am a 17 year old toddler. Minus the diaper changes. -___-

It's gay. I hate it. I feel unproductive each and everyday of the week. The basketball season has just been extended, so I'm living day-to-day as far as scheduling goes. It's ALWAYS suttin' else. I can't ever just clear my thoughts and chill with some quality me time afterschool. Just another school day +3 to 6 additional hours. It is eating away at my BRAIN. November 26ish to Forever. Basketball never dies, apparently. So I'm like, somewhat sick with the 24hr/7days a week basketball flu. I am so sick of it.

But, you know what? I will miss that freaking sport, more than anything else. It has brought me through a lot of personal realizations. I've become tight as hell with 15 or so girls who allllll do it for the love of the game. And I guess that's the reason why I've stuck around, even while superglued to the bench.

My desire and passion to master everything has put me in the weirdest positions. I just want things to work out without driving myself insane in the meantime. I hate spazzing. I hate stressing. I wanna relax more than anything else in this world. So I've just kinda talked myself into becoming less of a lazy ass and doing some of this work now. Good Nighty.

sidebar: I'd like to lose 10lbs. I will by May.

-IJ



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